So I have been nominated to receive a pair of lucky socks to help get me pregnant. Nothing else seems to be working, so if given to me, hell yeah I’ll wear them! So thank you everydaystranger for putting this really sweet gesture out there. You can actually vote for me to get them (that is if you find me most deserving!). Though either way, it’s really cool.
I know I haven’t spoken about our infertility woes in a while. We’re jumping on the IVF train soon, though I think we may keep the details private. I’ll see how I feel with how much I want to share as it gets going . We learned the hard way when we got that false positive on the preg test and told our whole family we were pregnant. Since then, we’ve kinda kept everything a bit more to ourselves.
I am definitely not a private person, in any way. It’s hard for me to keep all this to myself. I love to share, I find it helpful and healing in so many ways. But on the other hand, it sometimes gets hard when I know so many people are waiting for an answer on a particular day. It’s just too much sometimes. I’m trying to find a balance between sharing enough that helps me (and possibly others), but keeping enough private.
I’ll continue the acupuncture & herbs because it can’t hurt.
As far as the fertility treatments go, we are lucky enough to be able to even consider IVF. We are in one of those states that has a mandate so my health insurance will cover 2. So yes, I’m thankful for that.
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January 11, 2010 at 1:01 pm
Sheila
I just voted for you, Lani …but Melody seems to have won over many voters with her letter, lol. Either way I wish you luck!
xoxo sheila
January 11, 2010 at 2:04 pm
Nuwie
my first thought was Sloth’s socks 😉
Good luck with the lucky socks!
January 11, 2010 at 2:20 pm
Tamara
I nominated you, so I’m very pleased … 🙂
January 11, 2010 at 3:32 pm
mamaliza
i voted for you too lani.
that is so amazing that ivf is covered in your state.
i understand not wanting to share all the details all the time.
i’m here for you and hoping for silas’s sibling to come soon
xoox
January 11, 2010 at 4:24 pm
everydaystrange
There are actually two pairs of socks at play here, both from IVF veterans who had successful pregnancies.
So you’re still well in the running 🙂
January 11, 2010 at 7:09 pm
Sally
I get this. I felt the same on our very brief TTC journey after we lost Hope. To share or not to share. I too didn’t want people knowing what cycle day I was on and when I might be likely to have news. But then, the support in having people knowing was also invaluable. It is a fine line.
I don’t need to know your cycle days or any of that stuff Lani. I don’t need to know a single detail. But know if you do want to share, I’ll be here to listen, hold your hand and send so much love and support.
I’m here for you. I care about you. I am wishing and hoping for miracles for you.
Lots of love to you.
January 12, 2010 at 1:04 am
jennie
I just voted for you too, Lani! And, I have to agree with Nuwie! I thought the infamous purple socks when I read your title for this entry! Sending love and ((HUGS)) as always…..
January 12, 2010 at 6:25 am
Angie
I was really really freaked out when I began to get asked if I tested yet. If I am pregnant. When I am ovulating. I get it. I love you, Lani, and am hear to bend an ear about anything, including ovulating, or crosswords puzzles. Speaking of which, have you downloaded the NY Times daily crossword for your Blackberry? I was intrigued. Maybe it will get me to do the friggin’ crossword daily again, which may or may not be a good thing. XO
January 12, 2010 at 12:04 pm
Kristina
I voted for you Lani! I want you to have all the luck possible! Good luck w/IVF should you choose that route. Share what you want and keep private what you want-whatever is best for you. Regardless of what I know, I will be rooting you on from the sidelines! ((HUGS))
January 12, 2010 at 3:21 pm
Heather
Vote…is…cast! C’moooooon SOCKS!
So sorry to hear about Bhanda. Sadness. Hope that he can stay comfortable through it all, and hey, why not…goat cheese it is!
January 12, 2010 at 3:42 pm
Jen
Vote is cast, come on lucky socks! Although my company blocked out the results page – guess it was too pornographic?!?
Lani, you are a wonderful mom. To all of us. Whenever I drink a glass of water or tell anyone else to, I think of you. If I was stuck in the rain, and you let me inside, you would be my savior, not my nemesis. Be kind to yourself.
XOXO
January 13, 2010 at 1:26 am
Rachel
Sorry to hear about Bhanda : ( xxxx
just a *hi* and sending lots of love to you both xxx
January 13, 2010 at 3:42 pm
statia
I know that Shannon sent an email to you about the lucky sock’s twins (the pair she sent me) They saw me through my FET with my son and two deliveries. I hope they bring you the same luck that they brought me.
I’m so very sorry about your son.
January 13, 2010 at 3:42 pm
WG
Glad to hear about your coverage and to know you are considering all options. Acupuncture can really increase the success of IVF so it’s good that you are keeping up with it whether you ultimately do ivf or not. It’s good that you are still young too. Since you got pregnant before, I think it will work well for you and I’m glad.
I started acupuncture 2 months ago and just found out I’m pregnant and I just turned 39. After a miscarriage earlier this year and trying since then, it’s quite a blessing. I don’t know if it will stick but I’m hoping. If I lose this one I’ll do IUI or IVF next. Unfortunately, my state doesn’t cover IVF for small companies. Oh well.
January 13, 2010 at 3:44 pm
WG
I’m voting for you to get the socks too. They are cheaper than ivf.